tonight my special friend that i love so dearly had a show here. and i went. i had a few reservations about attending the show, but they were put to ease as soon as i walked in and saw her. i wasnt scared anymore. i wasnt overwhelmed by the feelings inside.. i just watched and listened with all of my heart. and a special note- shoutouts to katie! who is oh so cool and i hope she will be my friend. for now i must cut this short because i cant handle it. and i dont know the words for what i want to say. so ill finish this tomorrow when im collected.